164. Thence now comes the anguish, so that the will is enclosed in the darkness. The attraction of the will makes the mobility, and the mobility makes the ascension of the will out of the darknesses; in a word the ascension is the first essence, for it begets itself in the attract, and it is itself the attract. Now, the will cannot either suffer the attraction; for that renders it tenebrous by the attracted essence, which the will seizes, and to which it resists: this resistance is the mobilising, and the mobilising makes, in what is attracted, a separation or a breaking; for it divides. The astringency cannot either suffer that in the attract; the anguish becomes greater in the will, and the attract also greater to retain the mobilising; and when the mobilising is thus strongly attracted and retained by the astringent attracting, it pricks itself; it becomes sharp 5. it pierces into the astringent anguish: then the astringency draws yet more strongly to itself. Thus the sting becomes so great in the anguish, that the will
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mounts in a horrible fright, and forms the project of flying away out of the darknesses.
265. Here originises the eternal affective base, so that the will will pass from one source into another source, that of the sweetness. There originises also the eternal quality in the anguish; it is the eternal worm which begets itself and which also gnaws itself; it lives in itself in its own anger, in the darknesses which it produces itself. Finally there also originises the eternal inqualification or impregnation 5 beyond which, there is nothing more to seek; for there is nothing deeper or anterior. That operates itself always from all eternity, and has no fabricator nor creator; and it is not God, but it is the original harshness of God, the eternal anguish, begetting in itself and also devouring in itself, and nevertheless consuming nothing; and neither augmenting, nor diminishing. 66. Now, if now the eternal will which is thus begotten from all eternity in the anguish, conceives an affection for some other thing, in order to avoid the harshness and to rise into the sweetness; that nevertheless cannot come otherwise than from itself. Thus the soul begets anew a will to live in the sweetness 5 and the source of this will rises from the first will 5 from the anguishing soul; from the tenebrous astringency, which, in the movement, makes a breaking wheel. There then the reconceived will envisages itself in the breaking wheel, in the great anguish, in the eternal soul, seeking a place where there may be something which exists
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3in the sweetness 5 and this same glance into the anguishing and breaking wheel, is a flash of a great volubility which the anguish sharpens thus in the astringency, so that the sharp of the flash is consuming, and that is the flash of fire, as this is seen in nature. Thus a hard substance passes through another in sharpening itself, and begets a flash of fire which existed not before. Now the reconceived affective base seizes the flash, and looks now into the astringency, and the flash by its choleric sharp consumes the compacted astringency which retains it prisoner in the darknesses; understand the will which is in the affective base, and which now is delivered from the darknesses.
67. Thus the astringency receives the flash, and recoils in its terror, as being subjected; it becomes sweet by the terror 5 in this sweetness the flash deploys itself as being in its own mother 5 and by the effect of this sweetness it becomes white and clear; there happens anew a surprise in the flash because of the sweetness, and it is the expansion of a great joy 5 in which the will is delivered from the darknesses.
68. Thus the eternal soul unites itself to the will reconceived in the sweetness of being delivered from the darknesses of the anguish 5 the sharp of the breaking of the eternal darknesses dwells in the flash of the sweetness; and the flash deploys itself in the anguishing soul, into several thousand times a thousand; yes, without end and without number; now, in this same flash, exists always anew the will and the ardent inclination to go forth from the darknesses.
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For there, in each will, is found anew the flash to produce an opening; which I call the centre in my writings and in all the course of this book.
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