15 But behold, Providence was watching over the sorrow and the unsatisfied anxiety of that solitary child, who had promised himself to “free himself or die”.
2When he arrived at Mettray, his “plans toppled like a house of cards”.
3Because at Mettray, instead of an executioner, de Metz awaited him.
4Providence, which had denied him a father among men, now presented him with a spiritual father.
5In charge of the prison, where so many tormented souls saw the light through his mediation, the old man “grave and charming, the complete gentleman” who directed it understood the desperate flutterings of the celestial bird in its captivity, and treating him with sweetness and with kindness, penetrated the sorrowful reserves of that vibrant harp and “initiated” it into the secrets of its higher destiny.
6And it was that in that “prison” a principle of love was lived; obedience was to be assent, not subordination; it was to be conformity, freely accepted, with the eternal principle that transcends the command and illumines it, and not inertia, passivity, ignorance or suppression of what is noblest in man: discernment. ―Everything for liberty, nothing by obligation‖ was the motto his Master presented to him; and Saint-Yves could offer no other kind of obedience than that which the superior spirit renders voluntarily.
7His psychism, painfully conscious, could not be weakened or bowed by the summons to violence, and when, undisciplined and strange, he appears provocative and impassive before the world, it was that, uncomprehended, he was jealously safeguarding the one treasure left to him in his prison: Liberty.
8For the first time, Saint Yves confronted Authority and not Force.
9It will be the basis of his social work.
10Two years of Mettray, then the Lycée...
11Alas!
12The soul, initiated into the secrets of Truth and confronted by her, knew no peace.
13The searing brands of the violence suffered so early had left the burn of open sores upon his so-fine skin, and the silken hand of his Master guided him no more...
14And he fell once again under the ignominy of the halter!
15By order of his father, scarcely having taken his baccalaureate and as the consequence of a conflict with a professor, before his majority, he had to enlist in the marine infantry.
16Behold him, exiled in his body, convulsed in his soul, enduring one of the most iron-bound and painful of disciplines for his love of liberty.
17And again he called upon liberty or Death.
18And Providence answered once more the anguish of his call and loosened the tight embrace of his Fatality.
19And here too de Metz was his Providence.
20He obtained the exchange of his service, and he entered naval medicine at the school of Brest.
21At 22, a grave illness frees him also from this work and, exhausted, full of sad experiences, but never defeated, he recovers at the last, for ever, his outward liberty. 2nd.
22PERIOD — THUS BEGINS A 2nd.
23STAGE OF HIS LIFE - WHICH IS ALSO THAT OF THE BEGINNING OF HIS MATURITY — Up to age 36.
24LIBER- TY,.
25STUDY, SCEPTICISM, THE TERRIBLE COMBAT, BEGINNINGS OF VOCATION.
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